Sharon Stone was right: "Women can fake orgasms, but men can fake entire relationships."

Ok I know I said that I’ve decided to be happy… somehow it’s so darn hard. Furthermore I’m more crushed by the possibility that I might not get my cherry shisha L

I need to let go some stuff. I have my closure already. Logically I know all these are normal feelings and I don’t expect sympathy or compassion (I think everyone has had enough of my whining)

This is horrible. I don’t want to be feeling like this. But I honestly can’t help it.

The last few days of my “relationship” weren’t so hot. It’s just a lot of weird. I was haunted by thoughts about our “rship” and I have been questioning his love in my head. We talked like strangers on the phone and it adds onto my doubt. I did ask him if he wanted to breakup he said No. He said “I love you” after every conversation. Then suddenly he decided that he doesn’t anymore. How is that? I would like to know how this works. I know when something is not there then its not there. But I want to know the process that takes place. What method did he use to just change it. At this point I couldn't care less about the why. I wanna know the HOW!! Because personally I am having a hard time turning off this “love” or whatever it is I am feeling. Maybe someone can shed a light on this.