In search of freedom

Preface: Bless you. May the road rise up to meet you, may the wind be ever at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face and the rain fall softly on your fields. And until we meet again, May God hold you in the hollow of his hand.

"Dont cry because its over. Smile because it happened." Dr. Seuss.

once again i'm off to find myself, to gain more experience & to be happy. its easier to think about him and smile now :) baby steps D, baby steps.

Junkie Monkie

Preface: Gandhi said "A man is but the product of his thoughts. What he thinks, he becomes"

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this is so cute, i saw it at Life is a PB Sandwich and wanted one too :) this is what i think i am or what i think i should be.

Mood: Easy Rider. Taking life how it comes - i do go with the flow

Fun: Qonqueror. Really?

Habits: I'm definately a junkie monkie. I love anything sweet :) like chocolate moist cake *yummy*

Love: I'm a love bug hehe..

Gandhi is right.

Enuf already!... please?

Preface: "Love is life. And if you miss love, you miss life."Leo Buscaglia. Good thing I'm very lovable :)


lately i have been thinking about my X a lot. wait a minute, i dont want to get back together or anything like that. mostly i have visions of him with a fugly, watching me with a hunky at cacoon smoking that chocolate mint shisha. i think i miss being in love, miss having someone to call in the middle of the nite, miss talking sweet nothing with someone. on the other hand i do know its too early for me and i dont do rebound. i just cant wait to be blissfully happy again hehehe.. maybe my trip to singapore n kl next week will cure me of this melancholy *cross fingers*

any idea for a wedding gift?

Aargh moments

Preface: Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."But I say unto you, they are inseparable.Together they come, and when one sits alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.

I am getting thru this, I know. For a brief moment today I thought about Shaitan. More than feeling angry at him, I felt sad that its over. I told my sister once that I feel alive after a break up. Seriously, the only time we feel alive is when we're in love and when a r'ship ends. Any other days are just normal.

They don't share! Why should we?

Preface: I smoke (nargile) If that bothers anyone, I suggest you look at the world.

I woke up tired today. Don’t know why. No dreams I can remember about. I think it’s because I slept on my sides and my shoulders feel like they’ve been carrying heavy stuff. So I took a hot shower, which only makes me feel more like going back to bed. I went back to take another cold shower to shake off the sleepiness and felt a whole lot better.

I’ve been thinking about starting an experiment again. My shisha flavors are dwindling fast therefore I think it’s good that I start trying new recipes for better shisha experience :) I have some mints at home. I suppose I can come up with a creative way to use ‘em.

Oh something bad happened during my mini vacation. My niece accidentally broke my shisha bowl *sniff sniff* When I discovered the broken pieces I damn near had a heart attack! I called Rez and she immediately came to mourn with me. Good thing I studied engineering in uni, I was able to put my expensive education to use and fix the precious thing *grins* Thank you dad. Rez & I proficiently put it to use smoking 3 times before Anari came to the house.

Shisha is cheaper and less fattening!

Mental note: Buy charcoal on the way home later… and lemons, if I have enough money.

Dreams, take me away

Preface: When I thoughtlessly and impulsively react to feelings of anger, I always end up regreting it...

It’s funny that the things I miss the most when I was away is my bed and pillows. I know. I’m surprised it’s not blogging too! It feels so good to just lie there with the familiar smell of my bantal busuk (smelly pillows).

I don’t usually dream when sleeping. I do most of my dreamings when I’m awake. I don’t know what that say about my brain. Whether the brain is too lazy to do anything in the middle of the night or it’s just how a brain should be (sleeping) or could be I am very forgetful that I just don't remember dreams. Last night my brain decides to dream thou. I don’t remember much of it but the last part was horrible. Shaitan (the X) was telling me that he made a mistake and he loves me. Before I could reply with “Go to hell, you jerk!”, my mom woke me up. AArrgh!! How crappy is that? Does this mean I harbor a secret wish to get back together with that idiot? I think not. Mom just cut short my dream just when I was getting into the good part *sighs* I seriously don’t mind re-living the verbal abuse I gave him HaHa!

I regret swearing at him actually. It's so not me to be angry like that. I'm usually more of the cool type. Very seldom show my feelings to other people outside my family & friends.

I wish for a life-eraser. Something I can use to erase part of life that I don't like or want to forget.